More Heat: I’m honestly learning a lot about myself
Today was one of those days that really put me through the paces, both physically and mentally. The heat was relentless, and honestly, it’s always a weird experience for me when I find myself in these situations. It’s like, on one hand, I know I want to push through and do my best, but on the other hand, the discomfort and exhaustion threaten to take over. Still, I’ve come to realize that these moments are where I learn the most about myself—about my limits, my resilience, and my mental toughness.
A2 has always been a weird one for me. It’s that race that I approach with a mix of anticipation and apprehension. It’s not necessarily because I doubt my abilities, but because A2 has a way of testing me in different ways. Sometimes, I get caught up in trying to push too hard too soon, or I overthink what I need to do to succeed. But over time, I’ve started to understand that A2 is just another step in the process—a chance to gauge where I’m at and what I need to focus on moving forward.
2017 just subconsciously sits there in my mind. It’s like a faint memory or a ghost of the past that I sometimes compare myself to. That year was different; I was younger, maybe a little less experienced, but also more naive in some ways. Looking back, I realize how much I’ve grown since then, how much more prepared I am now. Still, those old memories serve as a reminder of how far I’ve come and how much potential I still have to tap into.
Today wasn’t the most comfortable day all around. The heat definitely played a big role in that. I wasn’t really feeling at my best, but I also knew I wasn’t completely terrible either. It’s a strange balance—being aware of my discomfort without letting it define me. I kept reminding myself that it’s just part of the game, part of the challenge of racing in these conditions. The heat race, in particular, wasn’t great for me. I struggled to find my rhythm early on, and my body was fighting against me trying to stay cool and focused. It’s frustrating when you feel like you’re battling your own body, but I knew I couldn’t let that get to me.
Despite the rough start, I understood that I needed that heat race to get right for the main event. It’s all about building that confidence and getting into the right mental state. Sometimes, you have to go through the tough parts to appreciate the success that comes later. I kept telling myself that this race was just a stepping stone—a way to shake off the nerves, to get my body acclimated, and to learn from the experience.
By the time I hit the main event, I was more prepared mentally, even if physically I was still feeling the effects of the heat. I focused on my breathing, on staying calm, and on executing my plan. The main event was tougher than I expected, but I stayed in the moment and pushed through. Every lap was a small victory—each one teaching me something new about my capabilities and my resilience.
Looking back, I realize that these challenging days are what shape me the most. The heat, the discomfort, the mental battles—they’re all part of this journey. I’m learning to embrace the struggle because it’s what pushes me to grow. Ultimately, I’m proud of how I handled today, and I’m excited to see how I can take these lessons into the next race. It’s all about progress, about learning more about myself with each experience, and about staying committed to the process, no matter how tough things get.
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